I’ve been working on a project for the last eleven months. In reality this is only the most recent phase of a project I’ve been working on for ten years. The project is to figure out how I’m going to make an acceptable living. (I’m currently making a living, but it is not acceptable, for many reasons other than money.)
For the last eleven months I’ve been learning how to make a living online. I’ve spent hundreds of hours, and thousands of dollars, and you know what? So far I’m not making shit. I’ve made sixty five dollars, but it cost me a hundred dollars worth of free advertising. So if I’d had to pay for it… it would’ve been a loss.
Beyond all the failure (or rather, temporary lack of success) it turns out there is one great quality I’ve come to appreciate:
I haven’t quit.
I will go long periods without any productive activity, but I haven’t quit. I’ll piss away a mentorship that I paid a lot of money for, giving me direct access to an amazing source of experience, advice, and resources, but I haven’t quit. The one thing that gives me hope is it’s been eleven months, and I keep on starting, over and over again.
I can’t give up. This is too important. It’s the rest of my life. So as frustrating as it is to look back on my time log and realize I haven’t done any productive work since July 24th (two weeks ago), I will start again. I’ll probably start many, many more times before I find lasting success. I’m an expert at starting. And I have to believe if I start enough times, eventually I’ll figure out how to finish.